How to deal with death of a loved one?

Losing a loved one is one of the most tough situations people go through in life. So sorry about your loss. I can imagine the pain you feel to the extent of feeling suicidal and depressed. When we lose someone depending on our relationship with them, we don't only mourn them but also mourn the things they provided for us when alive,  it could be financial help,hope,care,love,a sense of belonging etc and all these are the things that escalate the pain because now we have to mourn the person and also these other things we have lost due to their death. This is what makes recovery so difficult if we do it alone. My suggestion is talk to a counsellor to help you with grief counselling but if you can not afford it , try other techniques like talking to other people in the same position like you ,for example siblings or relatives who are also impacted by the loss of your dad. Talk about the things you will miss about him, allow yourself to cry and be sad when you need to because there is no shortcut with the grief process. If you can try healthy coping mechanisms like exercise,  meeting up with friends(isolation worsens the pain), healthy hobbies etc,  these can help too. If any of these dont work and you are still feeling suicidal, please call the toll free number for suicide and seek help. All i can say is, its very tough right now,but it gets better to handle with time so hang in there. May his soul rest in peace 🙏