Holistic Counselling!

I need some to talk to I’m emotionally and mentally abused and drained how do I handle this

I find it hard opening up to people because I think everyone judges me

My hands tremble while eating when being watched, or acting while being watched. I've tried several times to think positively, take the deep breaths but nothing seems to work. I feel so tired of peopl

It all feels like am loosing my mind

I was humiliated and now am mentally and emotionally hurt

I feel struck in a situation of failing to let go, someone who totally devalues me.

My mother is disappointed in me and doesn't want me any where near to my children.

currently i overthink through everything, bed is my best place to be and i talk too much even when im not asked just to fill myself in and later feel judged

I get angry very fast

Am torn between listening to what my mum and sister want me to do and what my husband wants me to do. Honestly my husband is abusive both physically and emotionally, but I get where he is coming from.