Am dying inside each day that passes by and now my worst night mare is that ,what if the pain moves from my heart to the whole body how will I be by then
It all feels like am loosing my mind
What you’re describing sounds incredibly heavy. When pain has been going on for a long time, the mind can start telling us things like “this will never end” or “I can’t cope with this anymore.” Those thoughts can feel frighteningly real when you’re exhausted, but they are not a prediction of your future. 🤍
- Try to notice the difference between “I am in a lot of pain right now” and “I will always feel this way.” Pain can make the future look permanent when it isn’t.
- Also, do not try to solve your whole life today. Ask instead: “What is one small, caring thing I can do for myself in the next hour?” That might be calling someone you trust, getting out of bed, eating something, sitting somewhere safe, or simply allowing yourself to cry without judging yourself.
Please also don’t carry this alone. A therapist can help you understand where the pain is coming from and give you a safe space to process it little by little.
And if by “dying inside” you mean you’re thinking about harming yourself, feel unable to keep yourself safe, or feel like you may act on those thoughts, please contact emergency services or a crisis service where you are, or go to the nearest emergency department and stay with someone you trust.