First, I want to acknowledge how difficult this journey has been for you. Quitting alcohol is not just about willpower—it is a deeply personal and emotional process that often comes with setbacks. It’s understandable that you feel frustrated when you return to drinking, especially when it seems worse than before. This cycle can be discouraging, but the fact that you are still seeking change shows immense strength and a deep desire for a healthier, more fulfilling life.

Your experience of trying to quit and then relapsing is not a sign of failure; it is a common part of recovery. Many people go through multiple attempts before achieving long-term sobriety. It does not mean that you are weak or incapable—it simply means that your journey is still unfolding. Each attempt, even those that seem like setbacks, provides valuable lessons about what works for you and what doesn’t. Healing is not always a straight path, but rather one with ups and downs.

Instead of focusing solely on what has gone wrong, I encourage you to reflect on what has gone right. What moments have you managed to stay away from alcohol? What strategies helped, even if only for a short while? What were the triggers that led to relapse? By understanding these patterns, you can begin to build a more effective plan tailored to your needs. Remember, quitting alcohol is not just about stopping drinking—it is about replacing it with healthier coping mechanisms, support systems, and personal motivation.

This process takes time, patience, and persistence. It may be helpful to seek professional support, whether through therapy, a support group, or even medical assistance if necessary. Therapy, particularly cognitive-behavioral therapy (CBT), can help you recognize and change the thoughts and behaviors that contribute to alcohol use. Support groups like Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) or SMART Recovery provide a community of people who truly understand what you are going through. If you have not already, consider involving close family or friends in your journey so that you have accountability and encouragement.

Lastly, I want to reassure you that you are capable of overcoming this. You are not alone, and you are deserving of a life free from the control of alcohol. Your struggles do not define you, and neither do your setbacks. What matters most is your willingness to keep trying, learning, and growing. I believe in your ability to create a healthier, more fulfilling future—one step at a time

If you are currently feeling suicidal or are in crisis, call 911 or proceed to your local emergency room.